What is hanging in the balance?

A business venture and by extension my financial security. Either it will further destabilize my financial situation or improve it. Thus far it's not looking good but a critical opportunity for forward movement is a month away and some marketing attempts are still pending.

The condition of my yard is also in flux and is demanding decisions and attention (and the spending of $$).

But I consider these risks worth taking. The former will contribute to self-knowledge and is a challenge I needed to take. My yard work is creating a stronger sense of being at home here and having a greater sense of my home as a sanctuary and a place for creative expression. Both are attempts to rise above my circumstances.

Often over the past few years, my life has often felt like I'm scrambling to escape from a hole in the ground. I'm feeling strong enough now that I'm less afraid of the hole and the struggle it's going to take to come out on top. I may fall back in because of an infirm handhold but I'll have more knowledge about what works and what doesn't for the next attempt.